Unfaithful ... not me !! *_*

chorus ;
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
end chorus

Unfaithful by Rihanna

The chorus is just twisted. and I like it. the song is beautiful. but i cant sing this to anyone, i am not that kind of person. haha... <--- poyo giler.
but seriously, for the person who wrote this track must've been a bastard or a bitch that just think of how fucked up he/she is doing to a person's love. but at least, it s an honest lyrics and words. I saw the video clip, damn ... Rihanna was so damn hot, and the VC does tell the story of the track well.
why cant local ppl do this? hurm... one reason i got, their camera is expensive ! reasons are always reasons.


Today, I screwed up at work. No mood to talk abt it. so i went KLCC, paid my phone bills, had dinner at California Pizza Kitchen, alone... and thinking again. damn... i guess i do think too much. But I guess, eating alone, does gives u the time to think. and watch other people eat, and chat, the loneliness just fades away. good ! after that, walked to Tower Records, and get the Rihanna CD. great tracks inside. but for sure now, Unfaithful is the no 1 list in my car :p

Graduate. UiTM Shah Alam

Today, I graduate. convocation. Rhobes. Mortar. Go up stage and take the empty scroll. walk carefully so i wont trip walking on stage. and shake hand wth the chanselor, and walk down. sit.
Woke up late, ard 10am, breakfast, chit chat with my mum, and then, Dosh called. "Oi gemok, i ll be there in an hour. Cepat sikit tau". he picked me up. and yes, I am never late. He is. the one hour, turns to be ONE AND A HALF HOUR !!! we re late. but its ok. we re 'late bloomers'. hahaha. 1 year Extenders !!! damn ... Engineering is not that easy aight ! :p
Electrical Engineering, major in Power Electrical System. EE112. UiTM. Shah Alam.
Dah grad !!! best nye ... bump into some classmates, took some pictures, and very few. damn. sedey jer. my parents were rushing to send my sister back to UIA. it was late, yeah. but manage to snap a few. I never thought i would come to my grad day, but i did. and i am glad i did. ^_^
the Pro Chanselor did gave a very high spirit speech. and i found out, he only did that only to us (Engineering Faculty).Other facs, he just say few words. i respect him ; Yang Berbahagia Tan Sri Datuk Wira Abdul Rahman Arshad. One of those politician and lecturer that is just filled with words of wisdom.
I did look for my lecturers, none to be seen. maybe they re busy. or yet, lazy. haha. especially, Prof Madya Tuan Haji Ishak. the famous Power System lecturer that failed me, so i can be 'extender' ! but he s good. i wish to see him one day, and thank him. ( ye ye je nih ) :p
Ok. Tonight, to the club. or maybe, to Hartamas. Lepak sampai lebam.

The pictures


thats' the always late Mr dosh

the famous, UiTMs' own Dewan Sri Budiman

in the line w/ Is

en Halim :p budak civil nih..

my classmates

The great Tom Harry :p

Isma & Me (behind; my second, second cousin) haha.

Donut & Me %_%




After the ceremony-UiTM McD- lol

20 Days of un-blogg-ing

Its May 27th, 0504hrs.
I just got back home from a 'hang out' with bunch of he good friends one can have :p . yeah... good friends. been there last time, been here now, will be there forever (one can only wish).
We watch 'The Davinci Code'. Brilliant!!! [wonder why ppl say its boring?!!!]
I didnt read the book, but watching it, it does gives a creep on the spine. the script is pretty good, and settings, wow!!! ... c'mon, Paris, London, and art gallery put together, damn... !
My take on it; mind boggling and disturbed inner side for the weak heart. it just gives u room to think abt possibilities in life. the truth that can always betrayed by one, one solid fact and the trust can just be broken and left alone to be thought and digest abt. kinda weird. It somehow gives hope for opportunity to lie and create beyond imaginative mind. still weird.

Ok. 20 days of silence [un-blogg-ines], lots has happen. I realise that i m in love, i m true, and i m in denial. but that would be only in my poetry in . hehee. yeah, this blog site suppose to be the 'happy ones'. but i did torment it already. ;)

went Redang last weekend, left on 19th May 0030hrs, and arrived at the jetty at abt 0830hrs. before that, ate at this stall in Kuala Terengganu, nasi dagang... definitely not a breakfast meal for me !!! and so, we hit the boat, and rock it !!! hahaha... great boat ride. i dived that afternoon, with 2 good friends of mine, and a Scottish boy,my friends' new bf, they stayed in Coral Redang (nice place, expensive. my gang were 20 of us, we stayed in Redang Holiday).it was a whole ball of fun and sarcasm was on the air for the whole trip. bitching and cursing is part of the itenerary. haha.
Fun, fun, fun, bar bar bar, sing sing sing, swim swim swim, and we head back KL on Sunday. Ate a lot along the way back. and again, its just fun fun fun, and cursing also singing thru our 'talkie talkie' <-- (as Shida would put it :p).
i m lazy to give details, its 530 am already now. and i m just gonna post few pics here.

Tomorrow, will be another great day. lets wish and pray it would.

May 7 - Mr Essvar birthday $_$

last saturday was Esh's Birthday. great fun, he got drunk ( he s not that Indian after all ), and we went home. at least some of us went home :p.
For me, Kem drove me to Subang, I went somewhere else after that. Thats' when it got messy. Our conversations keep on blaming each other. but this is another story...

So yeah, I bought him a clock, nice looking one. but he said it looks femme. Bodo je. but its nice !!! haha. me and Kem arrived late, it rained, no... it was thunderstorm ! so arrived at Maison abt 1240am. They didnt really drink yet. Esh, was there. birthday boy was wearing his balck 'cool' jacket, and Ninie, Amy, Aid and few girls were there as well. So, i start to order drinks ... haha... first on the menu, Flaming Lambo, followed by a huge Sex on the Beach, and the second Flaming Lambo, and one shot of Around the world. Came Jo, one bottle Dewars... we drank.. a lot. so, one more bottle of dewars, hehe... contributed by yours truly! lol.

anyway... good fun, great time only at Maison :p

Demented Issues

Dear heart,

I guess we have done it again. I ve shattered u in million pieces, and I guess now, u ll just bleed. Its not meant to be that way, but I am still praying that one day, I can help to put back the pieces in one again.
I know it has been too long since I came down and visit u, but do understand, I can no longer be the same person who always took care for u, who pamper u, and give u all the world can give. U have to be strong from now. Let brain knows ur stonger, tell eyes that draining cheek is no longer possible, because... u have become stronger. Even with a broken heart, I am sure u can pull it through.
Alas all those memories u have, just dump it out. Dont keep anymore. Its not good for you. I know its aching to see someone u love keep on *sigh... Im sorry heart. I wont say it anymore.
I am truly sorry. I wish u will take the beat as a strong heart from now on.

Love,
Me.

Damn the damned child

I think too much. How i wish memory can be uploaded to a device and deleted temporarily so my mind can work as normal. yeah yeah ... *boohoo... pity the boy with a brain that think too fucking much. damn.
LATER LA !

Cheese Cake makes u a MORON !!!

Today my day ended up BAD !!!. cant believe when trying to be nice and soft abt the topic we had, he blew up at me by saying that i am not respecting friendship. just because i told another friend of us, i went to see him. It should be the other way around, cause the un invited will flip, but no.... ! Anyways, fuck that. If he appreciate friendship (as what he always blabs), he ll call.
I m missing someone now. So bad. It hurts. Deep cut giler! *ouch!!!
so yeah, tomorrow is Urban Republic second week. Tiring ... but what to do, a man gots to do, what a boy wants to do! haha. Twisted?! yeah. guess i m back being demented. Miss it so much. Need my Duramine!!!

Shai's Wedding on the Labor Day. #_#

Shairini wedding ... *woooweee... no more a girl. haha. It was a very formal wedding dinner. the last one i attend such dinner was 3 years ago, no. last year, one of my dads' many cousins. as usual, we have to wait for the Doa' and speeches.
Shais' wedding was attended by the YDP Agong itself and his wife, also, the hot and always pretty 'now married to a Dato' Normala Shamsudin. Ariived at 8pm, met some friends at the lobby first. Saw Beeza(shai's younger sister), and she looked pretty with that long 'kebaya'. and then went inside the ballroom, waiting for the VIP entrance by the king. (Shai's father plays golf with him btw ;p). Dosh is not there yet, i m buzing him like a mad cow wanting to get him on the line. after 5 calls, it was the girlfriend pick it up and i straight away pass it to my dear friend, Aniza. I was a little upset, that why i passed it to her. so they talked for 15mins arranging how would they come in if they're late.
anyways, dinner starts, and it was good ^_^. Shai father sang 2 songs, which i cant recall the title, and then it was her sisters and brothers turn to sing. which i dont know what they were singing but it sounded hillarious! haha. it was a good fun.
came up with a flash presentation abt them, kinda cute presentation. enjoyed it. eventhough it was too long and it hurts my eyes. the screen was too bright. The family gave away 'Wajik' <-- if thats how u spell it. some traditional malay delicacy, a small piece of fruit cake inside the Sheraton box, and instead of giving the real egg (bunga telur), they gave marble egg. In the father speech, he mentioned the reason of having such egg, so that we would keep it and remember the occasion. Beautiful !
After all is done, we chat a bit at the table, Shai was too busy handling the guests, and i left early, ard 11pm. cannot tahan already. sleepy.
oh yeah, dosh came to Sheraton, but Sheraton Imperial in KL. the wedding was at Sheraton Subang! Duh !!! he came, and arrived ard 1125, which of course i have left already. ape da!
i forgot to bring my digital camera, so i used camera phone instead :( ... felt so handicaped. didnt even take pictures wth the wedding couple. *sigh...
So Shai... congrats again, and i want to see my 'niece' quick !!! ^_^

Sunday- and its f*-ing the end of the week !!!

it is 0317hrs now. cant sleep. I was thinking of what to write in here since i havent been writing since late wednesday. Pondering silently in my head, a lot has happened these past 4 days, and how am I gonna write one by on of it. *damn... confusin strikes! <-- like alwasys :p
so yeah, Urban Republic launch went well. Went too well for me. having too much fun I guess. hehe. It does brings back the memories from 'after SPM' clubbing experience. Its all abt hip hop and R&B. oh yeah ... i was an R&B freak! since i was little. My mum would listen to After 7, Babyface, Mariah, Marvin Gaye, Queen Latifah, BoyzIIMen, Chaka Khan, Janet and 'the always twisted elder brother' Michael Jackson, oh yeah, Jackson 5 first la, and all the soul singers back then. Then, i picked up on all 4 one, still with Babyface, Elton John, Bone Thugs, Wu Tang Clan, oh... the list can go on and on and on ... it did brings the classic feelings, but then, the friends, was a new one. Miss my buddies from back then. we all have 'issues' now to dealt with every single day and some just lost in the clouds of adulthood. no calls or way of communications, we all step back aside and just keep quiet. *sigh...
anyways, i took pictures :D ... not so much, i was 'tired'. haha. Ahli Fiqir did a great job! imagine, malay rap in a club. odd aint it ? but it was cool. Moots! frm PopShuvit sang the same tune i heard from radio so many times, kinda get tired of it. but it was a greadt performance from him. might cool! haha... <--- exaggerate lebeh nih ! went back to uncles' place as the next morning need to catch the flight to Hong Kong. i slept the entire flight. it was early morning flight btw :p
So HK... aww man ! i was emotional when arrived there. cause the last time i was there, too many good memories! felt the emptiness for a bit. kejap je anyways. cause i was thinking of y two great brothers in Seattle and Canada. miss them much. ate lunch there. then Kiki called (Uniform Lady).
alright, Kiki, does uniform for the club. great lady. she was pregnant 7 months when she starts dealing with me. and last friday, she gave birth to a baby boy !!! cant wait to see the baby and her again of course :p. anyways, she called asking me abt the new set of uniforms that we want. I was like 'WTF!!!' "makcik, u just beranak, relax la dulu..." hehe... well, she was good in her job, thats why its cool. wish her and the baby good health all the way !
HK... basic work. exhibition ... balik tido. and the go again ... balik .. SHOPPING !!! yay!! i bought lots of stuff;-
1) GO APE !!! <-- 2 t shirts and a cap from 'baby milo'. they were out of stock when i came on friday. they said on saturday have new stock coming. it was empty on friday night !!! only have shoes. damn... so, satuday morning, arrived 11am, queue for ONE hour !!!but it was good, and worth it. hehe
2) Mark & Spencer <--- t shirts and shirts ... usual stuff. and a pair of shoe that looks like my old one. cibai! balik baru perasan.!
3) CHROME HEARTS !!!<--- got myself a sweat hooded shirt. it look so damn cool. Limited edition ! fuck yeah it was expensive. but as before, its all worth it ! haha... wanna get the ring, still no size. Bodo nye amoi ! i emailed already saying i m coming, lupa pulak !
oh my ... for a while, i thought just now nothing much to write, but then ... hehe... over pulak! the pics will come soon. it is still in the camera, not uploaded yet. lazy. busy writing :p
before ending this chapter, i met cool new friends tonight. Mei, Donny, Benny, Hafiz, and meet again to have more fun, Arvin and Michael. Hope to party with u guys again soon... !

cheers,
LuQ
-NotSoDementedTonight-