Its not another blog.

Paiseh.
Tired of what people might call nonsense. Just when u wanted to create something great our of yr life, something just gots to make it hard to achive. better yet, making it dissappear from the sense of hope. *sigh.
Nothing much to blab today.
boring jap.

this was written an hour before i read a blog from Sg.
Now. I feel numbed.
How life can be so short for some of us.
That love can be the source to carry on living.
I pray for u, Docile.
rest in peace.

xoxoxoxo

Let It Run ! u dumb- ass.

whoa.
Was at a friends' birthday party. It was a good one.
acquaintanceship is something that i need right now. i guess friends does that better ^_^
Happy Birthday Andy. and wish u have a great days and years to come with lots of moments to cherish. with me too ! warkakakakhaha.

so yeah. i just can't get over the facts in the newspaper today. weekend Mail (MalayMail.Saturday-Sunday ed.) Front Page.

BLOG-WASH!
EXCLUSIVE SURVEY REVEALS MALAYSIAN BLOGGERS TALK BOLLOCKS!

so what ?
i mean, u want informations. go google la right? u want to have surveys, or there's a server that does that. so people talk (type) nonsenses, talk abt their daily lives, talk abt things that s in their heads. so let it be. and by doing a 'survey' on malaysian blogs, does that sells yr newpaper better? no way !!! hahaha. unless ur doing the cover story for Datuk K and cik Siti. hahaha. damn the media. ( i mean, some of them) i love more of the media now. ceh...
i read the article on this blog-wash thing-ie. lazy to comment or write anything abt it. nuisance. And miss Najiah, Mariah, Nur Azwa <-- the writer of the article. Go do a blog and blab abt it ! losers. = If the government gonna control blogg-ing, there's something wrong with the system =


brandon-andy-yrstruly

Ngok !!!

"I love Hip Hop music, But I dont Go Clubs" - quoted from **** from ************

I dont understand why.
why do when i go to hip hop nights at clubs. i see all these kids jumping and grinding around like their some mofo shuvvings in some sort of hell like masses. seriously, where is all the people that really enjoy clubbing on a hip hop sounds.
i see all these hip hop scene faces in town, in Maison, just sit there and look bored. literally look bored. is it because of the music? damn. music was good. damn bloody good. when i go Ghetto Heaven its more commercial.
people compare. zouk and maison. maison is much better in music direction. Of course. cause we are clubbers ourselves. but then, come to think abt the so-called-in-the-scene-crew, they dont even dance or look fun. pardon me, they dont look like they re having fun. wtf !?
seriously the perception of the clubbers in Malaysia kinda sucky lately. really sucky.
i love hip hop nights at club. its where u dress like mad ! like wht u see on tv, but! if u wear things like that, people will start to look u wth an eye and says 'Freaking Posers!!!'. oi, if we.them.me. are a poser, what that makes u ?! dumbass.
hip hop clubbers in Malaysia sucks.
mind u.

Silence.Is.My.Crutch. ?

today.
definitely one tough story to crack and to be told. the plan to tell out the truth, burst itself and swallowed me back into the black hole. I am too dumb-ed by the situation that for a moment, i was in total speecless reactions. never i thought of losing myself like that.
never meant to hurt. i never mean to make others un happy. this is the promise that i have told myself to keep. and today, i break it. again.
2 persons. i made them un happy. it hurts. badly.
worried abt myself is no longer an issue. It is just that now, i am totally lost in how to make things right again.
wow.
i am really hating myself now. just for once, i could just speak up. and tell how i really felt. didnt work out. i dont think it would work out at all. and seems like by being quiet, wasnt a good idea. it makes it out more. in sense of hate and love and also contradictary.
I choose love. as that is all i can give.
and that is all i know how to give.

abuser.

what a day. . .

" sometimes. I can be a jerk "

thats the last word i said on msn msgr today. a friend told me off. before that, Edlin scolded me because I didnt call her when I was in Sg. and she said, i have a huge problem with my f-ing attitude. before that, my family (just one person,cant disclose :p) said i sometimes can be very selfish.

apologise to all. freaking idiotic unsensitive bastard of me.

kimak!

F*** Me, I'm Famous ! ya dig !

= She told me she's lonely. She said she wants to kiss me. She said she misses me. But she forgot, exactly 4 weeks ago, she introduce me with her boyfriend. =

I am so this !

at work was confusing. lots of issues going around and I seems to be lost and cant grab a hold of myself. I dont know why, lately my mind has been not focus in anything. all i could think of most of the time is weekend. the 2 days where i can go out and party, or at least stay home, blast my dance collection and surf the net. yeah, it does sounds boring, and typical, but hey, i am some how a loner when it comes to having fun. but good friends are always appreciated. and i guess, i have few great friends i can associate with easily without getting all jacked up or upset. cause they seem to just layan me without making much noise. well some do, but what are friends for :p
I have been reading lots of other peoples blog and some are interesting while some are just plain boring. but to think of it, lots of it are trying to be someone else beside themselves. just some, or maybe a few. with postings of like I-wannabe-a-biatch look, or Hey-I-am-emo-as-a-fuck-can be look. i try not to be like that. as i am a loner (in certain ways), but i guess, its me.
Missing someone all the time is fun and great to get emotional breakdown. i have my own source of letting go. and trust me, im doing it in a not good way. kinda fucked up thinking abt it.
so, yeah. this is my boo-hoo session.
dont like it ?
make me write something worth to read !

-disregard me even u know I am just so fucking twisted in a cool way-

My Singapore Weekend.

"I am so good in faking happy face so others can be happy"
- Quote from LuQ at a bar in Singapore

My weekend this time was a dramatic mellow-ie up and down emotional ego fragile days.

*pictures !!!*

MoS Pee Stand Reminder.

tak best giler.

MoS

We Party People

Like WTF ?!!!

a come back blog

too long of no updates.
*sigh.
busy with work, issues come up, and i guess best explanation is...plain dumb-ed fucking lazy.
Lately, my karma has been hay-wire. things that i am doing, either turns chaotic, or plain normally done. diss the plain normally done. i wanna write abt the 'chaotic' parts of it. car broke down, accident again. darn. clubbing is no more fun for me. can u imagine that ?!!! goodness i m whacked. i rather stay home, and blast my speaker and drink till i m out. wake up, un-soberly . . .thinking of what to do next <--- this is on holiday aight. so i still go office normally :p
Now, i feel like i m forgetting or losing the memories of what happened few weeks back. I dont think i can write anything now. hahaha.
so, as normal... pictures tells more.