25 august 2006

Its been awhile since i last update here. tried a new blog space. didnt like it. its connected to yr friends directly, and everyone have the tendency to comment on what ever i wrote, what ever that is yr feel like. or even, will ask u back, "wtf does that mean.?". lets just put it in this one simple way... if u dont understand, buzz off ! easy aint it ?!

stopped writing. maybe permanently, maybe just for this fucked up period that i am in agony of now. and it is sooo freaking fucked up that i cant cross it over here.

bodoni...

:*(

sedey sial.

bored.

12 August
0516 hrs.

"when we sleep.
darkness springs and swirly.
all u need.
you can find it in me.
stay with me.
i have my heart surrenders.
comfort me.
as i fall apart. "

Picking The Pick in Life.

Sunday.

one call changes my weekend totally. being totally fucked up from Friday did help me talk to my friend. he was in some deep depression mode. Caused by. that thing called relationship. no crying session. just bla bla abt it.

we had tea. jugs of tea. just to drown everything and skipped topic as fast as we can gulp our teas. just so he can let go. and yet, i dont want him to let go. he s been letting go too much. just for once i want him stand tall and be proud and get back the love that he wanted to have. its difficult, of course ! if its easy, i dont think my parents with divorce kan. haha. jahat sial jap.

now its thursday, things changed. they re friends now. i hope it will be more soon. as i will always hope to myself too.